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Wednesday, 21 December 2016

Oatmeal: 2 versions

It's this time of the year. It's really cold outside. The world lights up because of all the christmas lights in the streets. It's ok to listen to christmas music (been listen to it since november O.O). I'm going to post some more christmas blogpost about my trip to london, christmas wrapping, decorating or a christmas dinner, my christmas shopping and so an :)

Today I'm going to write a blogpost about my favourite breakfast for the cold seasons: christmas oatmeal! I really love making these because they taste like christmas!

Apple-Cinnamon & Chocolate Oatmeal
You will need:
  • 50g of soft oats
  • 150ml of soy milk
  • 150ml of water
  • 3-6 pieces of dark chocolate or chocolate chopped in small pieces
  • one apple
  • cinnamon
Just put the oats, water and milk in a pan. Let it boil and put the oven on a middle to low heat. Cook it for 10-15 minutes and continue to stir it. Take another panand put one small chopped apple and some cinnamon into it. And also some water. Put the oven on a middle to low heat and let it boil for 10-15 minutes. If the oats are a little bit thicker and the apples are more soft. Put the oats into a bowl and put the porridge into it and the apple on top of it. Then put the chocolate on top and let it melt! It's so good!

Christmas Oatmeal
You will need:
  • 50g of soft oats
  • 150ml of soy milk
  • 150ml of water
  • 40g raisins
  • 1 apple
  • 2 teaspoons of cinnamon
  • 1 tablespoon of maple syrup
Cook the oats in the same way as I described above. Afterwards you only need to put a banana, raisins and some maple syrup on top. It's so delicious :)

Wednesday, 12 October 2016

A romantic dinner with my boyfriend

I've been with my boyfriend for 4 years. As a present for our anniversaries we are always visiting a slightly expensive restaurant. For the second time we went to the "Solevino". The food tasted great and the surroundings in the restaurant is very nice. It is a somewhat more expensive restaurant, which is why you are served quite differently. The time between the courses is also adjusted, so we always have at least 2 hours in the restaurant and have to talk.

We were sitting outside in the summer garden. Luckily, smoking wasn't allowed outside! We got the menus and ordered an appetizer. It was simply sparkling wine with pomegranate juice, very delicious.

As a starter I had a salad in a raspberry vinaigrette with goat cheese. My boyfriend had a kind of Gazpasho, but it was warm. So rather a warm tomato soup with vegetables. As a main dish I had a vegetarian vegetable bake with goat cheese. My boyfriend had meat with vegetables and potato wedges. It was unbelievably delicious and not too filling. It tasted very fresh.

As a dessert I and my boyfriend had the dessert variation. I ate cream brulee for the first time. It was incredibly delicious and not as sweet as expected. We also had a mango sorbet and a chocolate mousse. I love desserts and could have eaten several servings of the dessert.

I look forward to the next visit.

Healthy vegan Chocolate Porridge

I really love chocolate, but I'm definitely eating to much of it. So I need a healthy alternative because chocolate may taste good but it's full of sugar and makes you sick. It's all about balance: 80% healthy and 20% unhealthy. So, maybe healthy chocolate oats without added sugar as breakfast and two pieces of milk chocolate as a dessert after dinner. I just think that is much more healthy for your body and your brain because you can eat chocolate without any regret or bad feeling. Never ristrict yourself by saying "I'm going to eat healthy 100%!". Just a few people can do this the "hard way" and go "full in". I can not do this. I really love chocolate, the "bad" kind. Milk chocolate, white chocolate... basically every kind of chocolate. It's just so tasty! I'm not a big fan of fatty food, cheese or crisps, vinous and so on. But chocolate and cookies are my favourite kind of sweets!

This is a perfect recipe for the chocolate lovers outthere who want to still eat healthy. Too much sugar and to much chocolate isn't making you happy because it's really damages your body. 

You will need for one portion:
  • 2-3 tablespoons of raw cocao powder
  • 40g of oats
  • 100ml soymilk
  • 200ml water
  • 2 teaspoons of cocoa nibs
  • one fruit of your choice

Take a pot and put on your stove. Put your stove on middle to high heat. Now put milk, water and oats into your pot. Also add the cocoa powder and stir it until the powder has been dissolve. The mixture should be boiling but be careful. You don't want the oats to get burned on the ground of the pot. Just stir it all the time. As soon as the mixture gets thicker you can put your stove on low to middle heat and just let it boil a little bit.

Meanwhile you can slice up the fruit of your choice. I took an apple and sliced it into small pieces. If you are happy wit the texture of your oats: put it into a bowl, put the fruit and top and sprinkle some cocoa nibs on top of it. I love melted cocoa nibs.

I hope you have a chocolatey morning :)

Tuesday, 11 October 2016

Review: Green Day - Revolution Road

Basic informations:
  • Released: 7th October, 2016
  • Genre: Punk rock, alternative rock
  • Length: 44:29
  • Label: Reprise

Finally, my heroes are back. The new Green Day record "Revolution Radio" is finally there and I can finally hear it! I was in Frankfurt the last two days and the record was at my home waiting for me. I heard it right after I got home, several times. For "special" albums, I always sit infront of my CD player with the booklet in my hand and read the lyrics while the music is playing. So I know exactly what is being sung (because Billie Joe Armstrong sometimes sings somewhat indistinct ... but beautiful). Green Day is one of my favorite bands. Unfortunately the last records "Uno", "Dos" and "Tré" were not so good. It was just too much new music at once and without a concept. That was a shame. Because "American Idiot" and "21st Century Breakdown" were great records and "American Idiot" has still some of my favorite songs in it. I would even like to have a text excerpt from "Are we the waiting" tattooed. Namely: "Fairytales in my mind". Exactly, this is also the name of my blog. It just fits so much. For six to seven years, I have the plan with the tattoo and someday I'm doing it when I'm brave enough. Maybe as a reward, when I reach my desired weight, so the day I'm little bit more toned. But now we are coming to the new Green Day album ...

Now a review of the new record:
I really liked the tone of the record. It's more "punk" then "American Idiot" and really goes back to the basics of Green Day like "Dookie", which is amazing! My favourite songs are "Bang Bang", "Revolution Radio", "Forever Now", "Bouncing Off the Wall" and "Ordinary World". But Green Day achieved something only they can achieve: I like every single song. There is no song I don't like. The same has happed with "American Idiot", I love everything single song. So yeah, I love this record.

"Somewhere Now" starts really slow and silent, but it 'transforms' in a typical Green Day song, really similiar to their old records. Hardcore Green Day fans hear the similarity. "Bang Bang" is the first single release and deals with the mass shootings in the USA. A great but really really sad song, because it's so true. The whole album deals with similar issues - life in the USA at the moment. One of my favorite songs is "Revolution Radio". So it's called like the record. I love the verses, but especially the bridge and the chorus hit me. This song, however, is more like "Pop-Punk". In my opinion, Billie Joe Armstrong wrote about the media and the press in the USA. I love the verses of "Say goodbye" and also the lyrics are great. It is a typical Green Day song and in my opinion it's lika a little Hyme. As I said, the album is dealing with the violence in the US and the terrible events. Billie Joe Armstrong is committed to the "black lives matter" movements, as you can hear on this album. "Outlaw" also starts very quietly. In the refrain, however, a little more movement comes into the song. However, it is still one of the quieter songs of the album. I think it's very melodic. A great song. When "Bouncing Off the Wall" began I was directly loving it. I love the verses! The alternation of the measure in the verse is amazing. I love the guitar in this song. "Still Breathing" starts very quietly and then becomes a very nice but sad love song. I found it very sad because it was about soldiers coming home from the war. Or not. It is the typical song that people misunderstand and stamp as a ordinary love song. But it is more and very, very sad. "Youngblood" is somewhat monotonous and in my opinion the weakest song of the album. However, still beautiful. Also "Too Dumb to Die" starts rather calmly and starts after some time. I think it's a good thing that this theme goes through the album. It is also a typical Green Day song, the chorus simply remembered me of the old album. 100% Nostalgia. I liked the mood of "Troubled Times". A very gloomy song, as the title suggests. The verses are very melodic and the transition to the refrain is simply great and gives goose bumps. "Forever Now" is inspired by the great, long songs "Jesus of Suburbia" and "Homecoming". It is difficult to accommodate several songs in one song, but they are so great and fit together. Within "Forever now" I love the chorus of "Standing on the edge of the world". It's just Green Day like I love her. The transitions are great and every song is amazing with great melodies and great lyrics. "Ordinary World" is a very quiet song, only played with guitar. Billie Joe's voice is great. I'm already thinking about the concert I'm going to in January, where he'll probably be singing this song alone on stage. Just he and his guitar. It is a rather sad ending of the song with the sentence "What would you wish if you saw a shooting star in an ordinary world?" Yes, what would we wish for. After listening to this album, I would hope that the world would be more peaceful and filled with more love. Green Day, I applaud you.

Favourite Lyrics:

  • "All that we wanted; It's for our lives beyond stars." - Outlaws
  • "My head's above the rain and roses; Making my way away; My way to you." - Still breathing
  • "I'm hanging on a dream that's too dumb to die" - Too Dumb To Die
  • "I wanna start a revolution. I wanna hear it on my radio" - Forever now
  • "What would you wish if you saw a shooting star in an ordinary world?" - Ordinary World

Rating: 5 / 5

Tracklist: All lyrics were written by Billie Joe Armstrong and all the music were composed by Green Day themself.
  1. Somewhere Now
  2. Bang Bang
  3. Revolution Radio
  4. Say Goodbye
  5. Outlaws
  6. Bouncing Off the Wall
  7. Still Breathing
  8. Youngblood
  9. Too Dumb to Die
  10. Troubled Times
  11. Forever Now
  12. Ordinary World

Listen to it on Spotify:

The unexpected beauty of Bamberg

I am currently doing an internship at "" and was allowed to go to Bamberg. I have never been to Bavaria, which was a great opportunity for me. I love traveling and would like to see the whole world. We went to the "Heinrichsfest" in Bamberg. It is a Catholic celebration, which is why I felt very wrong in the place, but more about this later. I took us 5 hours to get to Bamberg. In the fast train I have the first experience with a defective air conditioning, which is why I had to change the compartment. It was just so hot. At the weekend it should also be over 30 degrees. Our train was a bit late. We had exactly 3 minutes to walk from one train to the other. We then went to the monastery in which we should stay. Yes - in a monastery. It was not as bad as expected, because the nuns were very nice. It was also just a kind of youth hostel and did not look like a church.

We then walked around Bamberg. Bamberg is incredibly beautiful. The houses directly on the lake are called "Little Venice", since they are also located directly on the water. Bamberg is very "mountainous", has many bridges and an incomprehensibly beautiful old town. We went to a small cafe in a courtyard in the shade. I've eaten a light strawberry tiramisu. It was made with yoghurt and less with mascapone. We walked 6 hours through Bamberg. In the pictures you can hopefully see why Bamberg is worth a trip. But the little sweet houses made me very happy. In addition we were in a Rosengarten. I have never seen so many different types of roses. Very beautiful.

In the evening we were n a typical Bavarian Brauhaus. They actually had a vegetarian dish! A dough bag filled with vegetables, the sauce over it was delicious but very filling. For this we had a smoked beer. This is the traditional beer for the area. It tasted like smoked sausage, which is why I was very shocked. But it is vegetarian and the taste goes away. It is only very strong. Alcohol and heat does not fit so well. We went back really early. We had a lot to do the next day, so we needed sleep.

The next day work was done. We had a stand at the Heinrichtsfest and wanted to inform about the goals of However, it was hot, which is why many people prefer to sit in the beer garden, which was shady. We sat under our pavilion, it was hot, stuffy and sultry. It was horrible. We changed often, so one of us should sit somewhere else and the other one stayed at the pavilion, but it did not work. It has drawn. Besides, as an atheist, I am always somewhat badly cared for among Christians. First recth, because the Bischoff once said that abortion was murder. No idea why a man who has never had a relationship (anyway not publicly) has an opinion about it. It's women's choice. Well, that is however a completely different topic. I do not like the Catholic Church at all. This intolerance makes me angry. But well, back to our suffering in the heat. We could make a lunch break with a comical vegetarian soup and a white bread roll. But since I had not eaten anything since 6 hours everything was right for me. We were so happy when we could go. Unfortunately, we still had to dismantle.

We then got in the monastery to have dinner. It was very simple. I have not eaten a bread for dinner for a long time, but well. We ended the evening in a small beer garden. This was very typical of Bamberg we were told. You order drinks and can also order food. But you could also take your own food. It was very beautiful. But we were so tired and only stayed for about two hours.

It was a nice weekend and I would definitely go back to Bamberg for a weekend. A very nice city.


Monday, 10 October 2016

My first marathon: Experience

The Day before the marathon:
The months passed faster than expected. In April I had made the decision: you register for a marathon. The first time I had set myself a goal that I wanted to reach, but did not have to. For all school and highschool performances, this was also my will and ambition. However, I had the opinion that I "must" do this. The marathon was a voluntary goal. I think I underestimated the training and would now do a lot different. Better training plans, no missed run, better food choices and more intelligent training. However, you can not change the past, but only learn from it for your future.

In any case, it was time and the 2nd of October was imminent. The day of the marathon. My training was drawn from two very hot days (over 38 degrees Celsius). I personally can not run in heat and since I had to work at 8 clock, I could not run in the morning. I also missed 3 weeks training because of a kinked ankle, an tonsillitisand a stem cell donation, which completely knocked me down. I had heavy legs for the first time in my life. The reason for this probably was my deficiency in iron, calcium and calcium. This is not an excuse, but the reason for my low marathon goal: under 5 hours ... hopefully. I was very negative and pessimistic and just wanted to make it. Fortunately, I have been able to use the excitement and adjust my will so that my final goal was to enjoy the marathon and to do my best.

The last day helped to get a little but more positve though. I drove to Cologne very early to get my Marathon documents. I also picked up the start documents for two of my friends who wanted to run the marathon as well. My sister also bought me the participant shirt as a reminder. It was getting crowded, so we drove back to my sister's flat. There I took all the things away and we went for a relaxed run in the park. My sister is still a beginner, so I have not even sweated. I personally liked the run with my sister. We were in a small animal park. There were goats, sheep, geese, deer, donkeys and more. Afterwards, I had a carbohydrate-rich lunch: muesli (without added sugar) with a banana, some honey and soy milk.

We then relaxed and watched Gilmore Girls before we went to the restaurant. We went to an Italian restaurant, so I could experience the traditional pasta party before the marathon. Of course it was important that I eat a lot carbohydrates. We shared a starter: Olives and a slice of bread fried in olive oil for each one. As a main dish I had spaghetti in tomato sauce with olives and feta cheese - super delicious! We had a few pizzbuns for free! A perfect day before the marathon.

The Day of the marathon:
The alarm clock rang at 6 o'clock. My heart was beating fast. The Cologne Marathon was just around the corner. I got up straight, went for a shower, put my running clothes on and made breakfast. I had my normal breakfast I always ate before long runs. Oatmeal with soy milk, a banana, blueberries and some honey. That was all I ate before the marathon. I drank a lot of water and a tea until 2 hours before the marathon. I said good-bye to my sister and made my way to Cologne Deutz, where the start of the marathon was.

I had to go only three stations by tram. There I had to change to another train and drove for another three stations. It took me a maximum of 30 minutes. In Deutz it was crowded and I already heard the music. I met my friends and handed them their papers. We were talking and looked at the scenery. There were so many people, music were played. It was so amazing and breath-taking. But since I had to go to the toilets one last time before the race started, we said goodbye and I was on my own. The toilets were the worst thing that happened on that day. I do not understand how people can be so disgusting. I'll spare you the details.

After I had to wait for about 30-40 minutes it was then done. I made my way to my starting block. This was the last because I was aiming for a time under 4 hours 30 minutes. I hoped to be faster than five hours. I had to wait about 30 minutes at the start before I could also start the marathon. I was very excited and just wanted to get it started. It was very cold as well, so I did not want to stand still any longer. I knew I would be warm when I run. But then I was allowed to go and getting closer to the start. I start my watch and my NikeApp and ran. The marathon had begun.

Meeting my family at 40 kilometes / 24 miles
During the marathon:
The first 28 kilometers were AMAZING. I ran through the center of Cologne, so I was cheered by many people, who also called my name. This really helps a lot. There were so many people on the streets cheering for the runners. It was amazing. I high-fived so many kids, they were so cute. Besides, the euphoria of the start took me very long. In my head it was not really clear that I had 4-5 hours of running before me. I enjoyed the situation and that I was so terrific. I felt no effort, which is why I was 30 seconds a minute faster than I had planned. I had no pain and felt no exhaustion. I was not even sweating! This was certainly due to the very cool temperature and the small rain showers. I met my family at kilometers 11 and 21. This also helped me so much. I looked forward to meet them at those points. I was grateful to have them. Without them I wouldn't be able to do this. Without them I would have been lost on this long run.

I took care to drink at every station. First, only water. From kilometer 14 I alternately drunk water and DextroEnergy. I took the energy gels about every 8 kilometers. This also helped a lot. I never felt the need to stop. My glucose stores were never emptied completely. Of course, it became harder and I had pain, but my body went well until the end.

From kilometer 28 the pain that everybody talked about was there. My thighs, as well as my hip and my butt, hurted a lot. Like really sore muscles. However, the pain was bearable and did not slow me down. However the pain under my feet were horrific, especially front. I've always said to myself, "If you would walk now or stand still, It would be the same as giving it up. And then the pain will not go away, so go on." In fact, I ran the entire marathon. I did not take a break. At the food stations, however, I took time to drink without stressing myself, so I run a little slower.
The last kilometers were also bad because I did not see my family from km 21 to km 40. However, I just thought about them and that I would see them again at km 40. The last kilometers were so hard. The thought: "Only 10 kilometers left!" didn't helped at all because the kilometers are felt so long. However, I unfortunately counted the kilometer down a bit and was no longer in the moment. This went away and I get back in the moment. Everybody has a rough stage during the marathon. This was mine.

My family gave me the last boost at km 40. I approached them smiling and saud "Everything hurts!". My father was visibly relieved that I could still smile and was so happy. My sister told me one day later that my father had tears in his eyes because he was so relieved. My family screamed "Only 2 kilometers left!". It was a bit more, however, because I had not reached the 40 kilometer sign yet.

The last 2,195 kilometers felt very long. Although I ran faster and smiled, it was hard. It did not end. Then we went over cobbles. It was good that there were more people cheering. I realized the finish line was close. A moderator says as I run by: "Ann-Christin just smiles the pain away!". This was incredibly funny and gave me even more motivation.

The moment you see this finish line is indescribable and it's over way to fast. I felt great, I could not believe it. I had done it. I smiled and just looked at the word "FINISH" all the time. I had run the marathon in a amazing time. In 4 hours, 37 minutes and 22 seconds. I could have been faster, but I wanted to enjoy the marathon and finish happy. I had achieved everything I wanted and more.

Me finishing the marathon!

After the marathon:
I got my medal and a plastic blanket that should keep me warm. Unfortunately, I was still freezing. I was wet from the rain showers and it was under 15 degrees. I grabbed water, two chocolate bars, and two small pastries. I had to use the free food, even if I was not hungry. I just wanted to see my family. Unfortunately I had to walk for anothoer 1 kilometer to get to the "Reissdorf". There were the pre-party. There were food stalls, a stage, drinks, the medals engraving and more. There also was a big screen from the finish line. I found my family and hugged them. I was so incredibly happy and proud. I let my medal engraved and then we drove home. My family was so important that day. Without them, all this would not have been possible.

At home I took a bath with a Lush bath bomb and relaxed. I was not very hungry, but I had to eat. I ate some sweets. But also a rye bread with Brie and Biscoff Lotus cream. Then low-fat quark and low-fat milk with grapes and some muesli and Lion Cereal. I enjoyed myself and do not regret anything!

At 10 pm I went to bed. It was an exhausting and exciting day. I am incredibly proud of my performance. The next marathon will take place in Berlin or Hamburg in autumn. In 2018 I am striving for London. I licked blood. I want to get faster. Running is my passion and running helps me. October 2 was a complete success. Even if my legs hurt inconceivably and kneeling wasn't possible for five days :D

Right after I got the medal with my little plastic blanket. Didn't helped, I was freezing!

Monday, 3 October 2016

My first marathon: It's almost time

The second October is still 10 days away. Why did I register for this marathon? I wanted to prove something and stumbled into this journey with blue eyes. I ran and had a rough plan. I ran long runs. Had many setbacks. And now I stand here and there are only 10 days left. I could have done more, yes. But: it is my first marathon and there is still a next marathon. I want to enjoy this marathon. You only run your first marathon once. I've got lots of tips and I can do it. The time doesn't matter anymore. I give myself too little recognition. But I have to believe in myself. I can do it. I have to smile, stay at the moment and enjoy the 4: 45-5h or more, at the moment. My family does not leave me alone. They are cheering for me at 11km, at 20km and 40km. I'm not alone.

Oh dear, what a journey. I know I missed a lot of runs. I missed training because of injuries, the stem cell donation, my ankle snapped, I was ill for one week and had some really hot days in Germany. Unfortunatly I can't run when it's this hot outside. It was disgusting. So this marathon will be hard, I guess. But I can run 17km and 24km without feeling pain in my legs, without being exhausted and with the knowledge that I could run longer if I wanted too. I'm annoyed that I couldn't run 30k or 26k in my training because of my illness. But: it would be much worth if you would have run this right after my 1 1/2 week break or just 2 weeks before the marathon. The 17k run gave me a little bit confident back. Because I run 17k in a 6.35 pace. And because of my illness I am aiming for running 1-15km in 6.50 (which is extremley slow but I just want to run it under 5 hours... I just want to make it.). The next 10km (16-25) I want to run in a faster pace, 6.38 (which is still slower). This is the longest I ever ran. So after this it's a new expierience. I mean, I ran the 24k in a 6.09 without being ouut of breath and without any pain. And without ANY FOOD and even without water xD Yes I am a marathon training newbie. But you see, I'm not a newbie at running. I run for 6 years with some interruptions but I can run. I could run 30-40 minutes almost immediatly. But yeah this was before my illness. So I never run 24k in the pace I'm aming for at the marathon. It is really slow. So hopefully it helps me to pull through and being able to have power as far as possible. The last kilometres (26-42,195) I am aiming for a 6.45 pace whish will be fast then I guess. I'm expecting pain at least at 30 kilometres, but it's ok. Because: I'm going to make it. I'm not going to give up. Giving up is not an option. I want to be proud. I want to see my family at 40 kilometres cheering me on and being proud because it's almost done. Only 2,195km left. That's nothing! I'm capable of everything. It's in my hand. Despite having to work really early to really late, having friends and a boyfriend - and cats - I found time to run 415 kilometres since June, with some runs not logged and with 5-6 weeks not being able to train or not being able to run long. Everyone would tell me I didn't train hard enough. And it's probably right. To this point everything that could have been going wrong gone wrong.

I had my long runs, don't get me wrong. I run 14k, 16k, 19k, 24k, 17k. So I had some long runs, but not enough. I know that. But it would be worth If I would to a long run 12-13 days before the marathon.  But I am not going to give up. I'm going to listen to my body and I am going to give my best. I am going to enjoy the experience, I paiyed so much money for this! My goal is to make it under 5 hours is my second goals if I'm having a good day. Time isn't important. I'm going to run another marathon and I am starting to train 4 weeks after this marathon (lightly train). So I'm training for the Berlin marathon in September 2017. So if I'm missing some weeks or runs because of uni, illnesses, injuries - it's ok. Next year I am going to run the marathon in under 4:30h or even under 4:15.

Keep your fingers cross for me!

Monday, 12 September 2016

Healthy + Intuitive + Happy eating

After about 3-4 bunch days, where I found myself eating Biscoff Cookie Spread just out of the tin or eating a whole Orange Chocolate and two muffins just on the go. And after 2 days of drinking with friend (that's not really bad, the binching is). So after these days and being afraid of gaining a ton of weight I need to clear my mind. I don't really know why I binched on thursday and friday. There was no reason. I wasn't restricting myself as bad as before, I wasn't counting calories. I just wanted to focus on "eat when you're hungry" and "eat healthy, because you are feeling better if you eat healthy". I assume it was the stress of my first week in my interturnship and the lack of sleep. But it's not an excuse. I binched. I ate like a robot, my mind was saying now but I couldn't stop and I just don't know why. I am so afraid because I don't know how to stop and I'm afraid that I'm not going to able to say "no" the next time these thoughts are going to my mind.

I'm going to do a lot of sport the next 1-2 weeks and eat really healthy and count calories the last time in my life. Just to be sure I kinda get over the calories I consumed in the last days. About 10.000-12.000 to much in the last 3-4 days. It's shocking I know. I'm going to take the bike, I continue my marathon training and I'm going to eat healthy.

After that, I am having a goals. It's healthy eating. I'm not going to weigh myself after I'm sure I didn't gained a lot of weight after my binched. I'm going to weigh myself in 2 weeks. After that I have some other goals: being healthy, fitting in a pair of jeans I love, train hard to get stronger and get more slim muscles, doing yoga and ballet for slim muscles. Goals beside the "weight loss". I want to get slimmer. But my main goal right now is to recover from the binching. If I'm going to be able to maintain my weight, fitting in my pants or maybe get fitter. That's amazing. I just don't want to be controlled by food.

Some points are important:
  • eat healthy and natural food
  • eat more protein and fats - keeps you full for longer
  • eat less sweets and sugar
  • don't eat to less
  • don't restrict yourself or label food as "bad foods"
  • eat when I'm hungry, not because I'm bored
  • eat until I'm full and don't continue eating just because it's there
  • getting into cooking 
  • portion control - I don't too much food, but I shouldn't eat to less food
  • be happy with my way of eating
  • healthy, balanced, mindful, intuitive eating

Be fine with having a bowl of cereal sometimes or pancakes, or a large breakfast. But also having soups, smoothie, yummy salads with tofu and eggs. Much protein, vegetable. Just finding balance. Maybe some day I eat 2300 calories, somedays I'll eat 1500. Some days I burn 1400 after a 21k run, somedays I just chill. It's balance. It's all right. This is my goal. Eating healthy, balanced, Intuitive, without restrictions. But mindful and healthy, just because It's much better for my soul and my body (I'm not bloated). I need to understand this. Balance, healthy and intuitive eating is going to make me happy. Three healthy meals and snacks only If I'm really really hungry in between the meals. Often I'm not, I'm just bored. So - mindful eating, much water, tea. 

And some goals beside losing weight:
  • enjoy working out, doing pilates, yoga and ballet - not because I want to lose weight but because I like to workout, get stronger, more flexible, more toned.
  • read more
  • write more
  • watch new tv shows and movies
  • study more
  • taking care of myself - relax, taking time for skin and hair care (I don't use a hair mask very often or I don't moisture my skin after I showered :/)
  • live - not for weight loss, not with the thoughts (my life starts after I lost weight). Live for me. For happiness.
Follow me on my journey. Going to keep you updated on my instagram and on this blog. I'm hoping it's going to be all right. And I hope that I didn't gain weight because of the binches. I know this in 1-2 weeks.

I just want to be happy.

I want to workout.

I want to eat healthy.

I want to live for my life. Not being controlled by food.

Saturday, 10 September 2016

Overcoming "running anxiety" after injuries?

I've been through all this. I had 3-4 weeks of amazing, long runs. I felt great during and after every one of them. Because I trained hard, I listened to my body, I ate well and I just was happy and so proud of myself. I felt like a runner. These weeks were the most amazing ones I had during my whole marathon training. But after all my injuries and after these 4 good weeks I've had been sick for almost 2 weeks. I was so angry and depressed. I was always asking myself "Why does this happen to me now?". I gave so much time and sacrifices to my goal: the marathon.

So after 2 weeks I was back at running and the anxiety hit me. I was afraid of my pace (time per kilometer / mile), how my body was going to react to running. I was over-thinking everything. I was afraid of everything. I was afraid that I could get sick again or hurt myself again. I doubted myself everyday. I was sure - you are not going to run the marathon. It's not enough time.

But I read a lot about running and a lot of stories about people who trained for their first marathon. It motivates me to not give up. It is still hard. It's always going to be hard. The runs will hurt. The marathon will hurt. Running is not easy. But this is making it special and it's going to make me proud. Every run is harder because I'm facing failure every time. Kind of. Because I'm not as good as I was before my illness. But failure is only possible if I'm going to give up and I'm not going to be.

My goal is: to keep running, to stick to my plan. Maybe cry because It's a lot for my mind. This stress, all the running and the negatives thoughts I'm facing. But as long as I'm healthy I will be alright and I will get through this. I just want to enjoy the marathon. So I'm training. I don't care about my pace, my time. I want to be a "finisher". I want to say "I run a marathon and I did it all by myself without any kind of help". 

Because it's a fact for me. I've been realizing this. You are alone on your race. Two of my friends also going to run the marathon but they are much faster than me. I'm going to be alone on the marathon day, and I'm always alone on my training runs. I told my family to not be there at the start because I want to be alone. That's my choice. I want to focus on the marathon. These 4-5 hours. They will be there at the finish line and maybe somewhere at 20-30 km. I told them not to be there to early. I'm going to run but they don't have anything to do. So they don't have to keep looking for me. They can have a nice meal at a restaurant and cuddle me afterwards. And: give me a lot of chocolate BECAUSE THEN I DESERVE IT!

After my injuries I really need to keep that in mind. To focus on myself. To be proud. Not matter if I need 4 hours and 30 minutes as I planned or if I need 5 hours or more. It's my first marathon with 5 weeks I couldn't run and 2-3 weeks influenced by the injuries and 3 weeks of building up my pace and the lenght of my runs.

The most important thing is to run, to have long runs without caring about my speed. I want to challenge myself so I don't want to be slow but I'm not going to care if I'm slower than I was before my illness.

These are the runs I planned for the next 20 days until the marathon:
  • Sunday (11.09.): Half marathon (21,1km)
  • Monday: Rest day - just stretching and some pilates
  • Tuesday: another rest day because it's going to be really hot this day
  • Wednesday: 10k run (it's going to be hot as well, but I'm going to run at about 6pm)
  • Thursday: Rest day
  • Friday: 1 hour and 50 minutes run / or at least 16,2k
  • Satuday: my longest run - 31,195. Unfortnutly I needed to move my marathon preperation run because I needed to train first. I hope it's alright to have a run this long only 2 weeks before marathon - if not, I'm going to split this run into one 26k run and one 16,2k run (equals one marathon). Going to have my research on this. It's sad because I really wanted to have a marathon preperation run / or at 26k
  • Sunday: 7k run
  • Monday: Rest day - just stretching and some pilates
  • Tuesday: Rest day
  • Wednesday: 1 hour and 50 minutes run
  • Thursday: Rest day
  • Friday: 14k run
  • Saturday: 10k run
  • Sunday: 7k run - as you can see I slowly decrease my runs. They are getting shorter so my body can rest. Also I'm going to stretch a lot and have cold baths to recover
  • Monday: 10 minutes slow running, 5k fast running, 10 minutes slow running
  • Tuesday: Rest day
  • Wednesday: 30m running in marathon pace
  • Thursday: MY BIRTHDAY! So it's going to be rest day, I really hope this day motivates me to give my best because my whole family is going to be there.
  • Friday: 20m running in marathon pace and getting my marathon document
  • Saturday: Rest day - probably having an amazing day with my family and a bowl of healthy rye pasta with a selfmade tomatoe sauce and a lot of vegetables :) going to cologne later that evening because I'm sleeping at my sisters flat so I don't need to travel to Cologne on  marathon day
  • Sunday (02.10.): The day of the marathon. The day I've been waiting for 4-5 months. Many tears, many doubts, my hard training runs and a lot of time I've been spending on running. Going to get up at 6, have breakfast at 7, a banana at 8 and start running at 10 - for 4-5 hours. Hopefully I will be proud afterwards. I just need to think "Only 4:30-5:30 (in the worst case) are necessary to feel proud and happy These are 4-5 episode of Narcos or other kind of drama series. And I did had binch watched 3-4 episodes before ;)

I am going to do a running update every week and maybe after my long runs. Keep your fingers cross for me. There are 20 hard and long days ahead of me.

Apple rye pancakes with honey-apples

I made some really nice apple pancakes yesterday and they turned out so delicious so I had to post a recipe of them on here. It is really easy and they are fluffy, filling and taste amazing. Oh yeah, they're also very healthy and only include natural ingredients. You may be wondering why I eat pancakes this often. First it keeps me full and keeps me away from binging. The second reason is that I often make breakfast for my boyfriend and myself for a amazing breakfast :) It's better than just eating bread for breakfast.

You will need for one portion (about 3-4 small pancakes)
  • 50g of rye flour
  • 1 egg
  • 1 teaspoon of baking powder
  • 60-80ml of milk (the dough shouldn't be too liquid
  • one big apple
  • 1 tablespoon of honey
  • 150ml of water
  • some cocoa nibs (optional)

You will need a frying pan, a saucepan and a bowl. First put the flour, the egg, the baking powder and 60ml of milk into the bowl and mix it all together. If the dough is to thick and there es flour left just add 20ml of milk until it's a thick dough, but not to thick. Now you can put some oil into the frying pan and put it on middle heat. Don't put your stove on a high eat because the pancake is going to be a little bit bigger so it has to be baken slowly.

Don't put the dough into the pan. First you need to cut the apple into two halves. Take one half and cut it into small slices. Take the other half and cut it into little pieces as you can see on the picture.

Take the saucepan and put the small apple pieces into it. Put the water and the tablespoon of honey into it. Put the stove on middle to high heat and mix it. It need to cook until the water is gone.

After the water is boiling you can put smidgens of the dough into the pan because we want small pancakes. Put the apple slices on the dough and cook the pancake for 2 minutes on every side.

Make a little pancakes tower and put the small apple slices beside. You can top your pancakes with some cocoa nibs. It's so nice if the chocolate melts ♥

I hope you are enjoying this recipe!

Thursday, 8 September 2016

Healthy bircher muesli

Breakfast is my favourite meal of the day and I'm also looking for new, healthy, tasty recipe to start off my day. For a healthy and balanced diet it's important to switch up you're meals. You get different nutritions every day and it's much easier to keep on going with your healthy eating if you having some nice every day. I really love this recipe because bircher muesli is full of healthy nutritions - fruits, oats, milk, raisins - so good for you and all healthy and natural. It keeps me full for so long because it's high in fiber (because of the oats) and also had fat and carbs in it. We need all of this. I hope you like this recipe as much as I need. Tell me if you're tried and loved it :3

You will need for one portion:
  • one apple
  • 120ml of soy milk (or any other kind of milk)
  • 40g of oats (not the soft ones)
  • one tbsp of chia seeds (optional - you can also add another 5g of oats)
  • 30g of raisins
  • 100g of soy quark / yoghurt (or any other kind of yoghurt)
  • one peach (optional - or any other kind of fruit or berry)
  • two tablespoons of maple syrup


You need to preper this on the night before you plan to eat this because the oats need to soak in the milk. You need to grate the apple first and put all the ingredients together into a bowl. The grated apple, the milk, the oats, the raisins, the chia seed (if you have some, if not, add 5-10g extra oats) and one tablespoon of maple syrup. Mix it together until everything is one whole mixture. The milk has to be mixed in really good because the oats needs to soak in the milk. Put the bowl into your fridge and if possible put something on top of the bowl to cover it.

On the next day you can make your breakfast :) Put the quark or yoghurt into a nice and pretty bowl and put the bircher muesli on top. Now you can add any fruit or berries you like and put it on top the muesli. I added a peach. Last but not least, you can put a teaspoon or a tablespoon of maple syrup on top and you're finished. It's a really healthy, and really filling breakfast. All natural and all healthy. And if you're using soy milk and soy yoghurt like I do - it's vegan :)


Sunday, 4 September 2016

Rye pancakes with a healthy strawberry sauce

The one thing I always do is making breakfast for myself and my boyfriend. He isn't a morning person, but I am. So the one thing that makes him stand up, get down the stairs and sit down is pancakes or any kind of delicious breakfast and coffee. I did my cinnamon honey apple pancakes the last 3-4 times, so I wanted to do something else. I made these healthy rye pancakes with a delicious strawberry sauce. I always uses unsweetend frozen berries. I don't really like canned fruits because it's always full of sugar. I much prefer adding some sweetness by adding honey or maple syrup.

You will need for one portion:
  • 50g of rye flour
  • 1 egg
  • 80-100ml of milk (any kind)
  • 200g of frozen strawberrys (without added sugar)
  • 1 tablespoon of honey
  • 1 teaspoon of vanilla sugar
  • 1 teaspoon of baking powder
  • some oil for the pan
For the pancakes: Put the flour, the egg, the milk, the vanilla sugar and the baking powder into a bowl and mix it together. If the dough is to solid just add some milk. Put some coconut oil into your pan and put the stove on middle heat. Wait until the oil is hot and make some little pancakes. It's much easier to flip them. Wait about 2 minutes until you can see bubble on the pancakes. Flip them carefully and wait another 2 minutes.

For the strawberry sauce: add about 200g of strawberries into a bowl and put the oven on middle heat. Add about half a cup of water and 1 tablespoon of honey or maple syrup into the bowl. Wait until the water is boiling and don't forget to stir it. The water should boil because the strawberries need to get soft. If it's boiling to hot you can lower the heat. If you like your sauce a little bit sweeter you can add another tablespoon of honey.

If this is ready too you can make a little pancakes tower and put the strawberries on top. But be careful, you don't want to tower to fall! :)

I hope you're going to enjoy these amazing pancakes!

Maple syrup porridge with cinnamon apple

Porridge is one of the best breakfasts you can have. It keeps you full for so long and there are so many different possibilities to make them. Here is a different way - it's healthy, it's sweet - but with healthy and natural sugar - and it has fruit in it. I just love it :)

You will need (for one portion):
  • 1/2 cup of oats (not the soft ones)
  • 1/2 cup of low-fat milk (any kind)
  • 1 cup of water
  • one apple
  • 1 tablespoon of cinnamon
  • 2 tablespoons of maple syrup
  • 1 tablespoon of almond butter

Put the oats, the milk and the water into a bowl and put the stove on middle heat. Stir it regularly so it doesn't get burned. You need to cook it for 5-10 minutes, depends on how long it takes for the oats to soak in the water. It shouldn't be to fluid.
 At the time you can cut a apple into small pieces and put them into another bowl. Add 1/3 a cup of water and 1-2 tablespoons of cinnamon. Just cook them on middle to high heat until the water is gone and your apples are soft.

After the oats are ready you can put them into bowl and add the apples, the maple syrup and the almond butter. And you're done :) It's easy and It's the perfekt breakfast :)

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